Tuesday, March 09, 2010 6:54:39 PM
Psychology, theory, people
may look at my "existence",
my "way", my "emotional
fluctuations" from energetic
sensations, my walking
slowly through the town of process
or running spontaneously
to cross the border and go
with the flow of my
dedication to prayer where
I contemplate
to discern
all
that is out there all
that is in me--
Psychology, theory, people
may look at me as
being "insecure"
Well, I am "insecure"
because I understand
the security in uncertainty.
I have often griped
over not being "logical",
I have coveted "logic'.
Now, I see the
"illogic" in that thinking--
I now understand it was
not for me to be "logical",
for that would have
skewed the Wisdom, the
gift spoken to and graced
upon my intuition, my inhibition uninhibited.
Logic could very well
have been a
false sense of protection
a deception that
would have prevented me
from being free to be "insecure"
and survive to live
securely in my insecurity while
knowing so intimately
the only security that exists--
uncertainty--
that fine line of grey
that carries us to guide us
as students as teachers
as divine revelations
to each others'
divine mysteries
until we realize
there is no mystery...
It is all Divine
For your reason
For my reason
at some point
the process holds purpose
for all Divinity
1/5/08
This is an excerpt from the book
...and Drink the Liquid Sound of Wisdom...
by Kin De Angelo, which will be available soon.
Monday, March 08, 2010 5:36:29 PM
Lord, I know "black or white",
"all or nothing" is not where You
live. It is where the ego resides (all-white)
and fear hides (black-nothing).
It is where punishment and imperfect-
conditional love breed. Grey is
where true love, trust and faith
stay. This I know, for when I
let it go--don't plan,
don't question, don't know
which direction, become still
and silent--You place me safely
with Your hands where You
want me.
Grey is where You live.
Grey is Eternity.
Grey is what we don't see,
which is the birth of
hope and true faith
at its maturity.
Forever, Abba, keep us aglow
in the shadow of Your Love.
Amen.
Love,
Kim
This is an excerpt from the book ...and Drink the Liquid Sound of Wisdom...
by Kim De Angelo, which will be available soon.
Monday, February 22, 2010 12:00:00 AM
Once asked, "Kim, how would you finish the statement, 'A perfect human being is...'?"
My reply..."A perfect human being is one who accepts the imperfection in others and self yet realizes perfect
Love through that imperfect human condition."
Then asked, "If you could make one thing come true for all souls on the planet, what would it be?"
My reply..."To fully embrace ourselves as manifestations of God's Love with full awareness that we did not,
do not create ourselves; to embrace what that Love and Grace mean and share it forth with
joy and compassion."
Friday, February 19, 2010 12:00:00 AM
We need to be careful to not raise another to the level of atop a pedestal, where we create an unwritten rule that causes them to feel they must be "on" at all times. This can be very selfish on our part, for in so doing, we actually rob them of quality of life, of breath of acceptance of their "human condition" that can lead to longer lasting moments of peace.
Compliments, acknowledgement of another's gifts and encouragement are beautiful praises we can exchange, but there is a fine line between loving, clear-visioned adoration and praises of idolization that stem from a deep need or void inside our own self. One of the most healing gifts we can give is to let another not take themself too seriously allowing for more ease in recognition of imperfections -- where we can all enjoy great appreciation for the beauty of humility. This bath water of humility can wash away so much negativity, fear resentment and pride to fill our pores with the essence of Love that is true.
Sunday, February 14, 2010 3:00:00 AM
I believe the "forks in the road" are necessary to bring us to the territory of scary, dangerous, courageous, adventurous discovery of who we truly are. I find they have, for me, always proven to be where I completely let go and give over to the will of Thou who created me. And in so doing, have built and developed a strong foundation of TRUST and FAITH INSIDE rather than outside of my body.
Like the stems of a flower, like the branches of a tree, "forks in the road" are just times to sit still for a minute and seek the Face of Love, the sun, the Light of Creation for my next direction -- photosynthesis so the heart of my soul can drink more chlorophyll where my limbs become more red-wood-evergreen and the flower of my Love more profuse, until I return to rest in the house of knowledge of Truth...my Roots.
To those of you who are reading these posts, thank you for your time.
Kim
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 7:00:00 PM
If I knew tomorrow were
my last breath, how
would I spend tonight?
In Mother's arms
tracing her face
kissing her heart...
In Father's arms
dancing on his feet
kissing his heart...
Then from Beautiful
who birthed me here
out I would glide
to Beloved's arms
into the eyes of (His) wilderness
where the rain speaks to me
taps my shoulder
in Love's saliva
dissolves me in rapture
as I nymph to fairy
and fly like a dragon
under the heart
of the Moon
and rise
to Her vision
My body a body no more
My body no-body no form
from His soil no earth
no idea no ideal
no heaven no hell
Mars into Venus
No Mars No Venus
one from two worlds
Beloved
no ground between us...
Love,
Kim
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 12:00:00 AM
Entering into and experiencing relationships brings about a great choice, decision to be made over and over again... "Am I willing to sacrifice my ego for this relationship?". Not "for this person", but, "for this relationship" -- for the sake of Love. (This does not mean for the sake of abuse) When we approach this choice as a question of "Am I willing to sacrifice my ego for this person?", we create division, separation, rather than unity and connection because we place one against the other, one against ourselves, and come from the place of comparison. Whereas "Am I willing to sacrifice my ego for this relationship?" helps to keep us aware that love is experienced through relationships, that relationship is a joining together, a union.
For the deepening development of this union we must be willing to set aside our ego. As difficult as this "sacrifice" may seem at a given moment, ultimately, each time will bring about growth as we break through individual barriers to the "Higher-self" within, which really is no self. Each breakthrough can increase our awareness of our capacity. The more the person is willing to be not 1 but 2 or more; to be not 1 but part of the whole, the stronger the relationship. As the relationship deepens, each one of us has more opportunity to increase our growth toward realizing our fullest capacity in the experience of Love. I emphasize growth here because really it is full circle return, "regression", to our beginning -- to a time of uninhibited Love. A time of no question as to who is right or wrong, just an expression, physical manifestation of Love, and a return to spontaneously responding from our deepest source of openness with no fear of wearing our heart for all to see.
Here we can experience the beautiful in vulnerable, however counter-cultural. Here we can learn to set aside our ego for relationship with our own innerbeing and lay down the judge to awaken intuition that can teach us to trust again. Here we can set aside our ego for relationship with our God again, and here we can become more comfortable in inter-being with other. When we lay down the judge we can learn to take ourselves less seriously and find humor in our human.
I give you my eyes
In my eyes, I give you my heart,
the well of my faith object
fed by
Infinite Wisdom
birthed in
my soul.
In so doing, I need remember I cannot expect the same from others, for I have no control over another's behavior nor process. Therefore, I need remember, if in living open, I am wounded, I am only accountable for remaining true to the nature of being that keeps my soul in alignment and spirit alive in me to overcome blame with forgiveness. Sometimes this may bring about the need for moments of "self-preservation" to honor healing. However, too much time spent in "self-preservation" can lead to "self-absorption" where, although the body is alive, life is dead. We need each other. We need God's Love through each other -- however that connection can be made.
Monday, February 08, 2010 4:13:00 AM
Do we realize how much harm we can cause to another, to our relationships, when we extend mixed messages? When we continually express that we believe they, or circumstances, will change for "better", while at the same time we express and hope they will be who we once knew them to be? Rather than accept everyone changes? Whether inwardly, outwardly or both, we change, and that change can seem negative or positive, but change continues.
If we are "loving"someone in our hopes (desire) of their return to someone we once knew them to be, we are not truly loving them for who they are. Instead we are "loving" them for who we want them to be, and this is not love. For instead of loving them we are loving what we want. This seems to harm many relationships. It is so more loving to allow the other the room, the breath, the encouragement and grace to be who they are as they move through their changes and circumstances. If this we are not able to do for them, then we are not willing to let go of control. And when we hold them to some ideal -- even if done so in utmost subtlety -- we push our so-called loved-one into reactionary behaviors as they try desperately to hold onto some sense of who they are and who they are becoming. We create fear rather than Love.
Sunday, February 07, 2010 5:05:54 PM
Although this is Kim's blog, I am writing this on her behalf because she has a special place on this site. Kim will talk about her experiences through her life, how Jesus found her, what she discovered about God, and how easy it is to know God. I am keenly anticipating every word she will share with us on this blog, but her experiences will come to us in a variety of forms. Please welcome her as I do and hear her important message.
John Graffio